On June 1st. 2024 I went shopping and did my usual bill paying. Me and Bethanne came home and found tommy sitting on the floor. He was tweaked out of his head. I got him up in bed and told him to get some sleep and sleep it off. Well we went and did a few more errands and came home. He was still asleep. He was snoring. At 6 pm I tried to wake him up and so did Bethanne. We couldn't wake him, he was unresponsive. Jake and Dad came over and tried to get him up and still nothing. I called rescue. His oxygen was 40. They administered one Narcan it didn't work. We followed him to the hospital and they would let me see him. He was a full code when he got to the hospital. His oxygen was 35. They administered 3 more Narcan at ER but still nothing. About an 1 or 2 they came out and said they had to vent him as when they did he vomited and aspirated some of the vomit. He had pnemonia but he overdosed on Oxycodone and Diazapam. These pics are from the next morning when I went up to the hospital. My strong husband and my rock was fighting to live. It was the most scary thing to have to go through.
Day 2:his vent is turned down a bit but they are not removing it today. He is still highly sedated. Hopefully tomorrow but he has developed a blood clot in his leg. His leg is so swollen and blue. They are starting blood thinners for that today. Its still so hard to see this. I blame myself. I knew he was strung out but I thought he would sleep it off. Why didn't I call the rescue sooner?
Day 3: He is still vented and sedated. Maybe hopefully tomorrow they will take it off. It depends on how he is doing. He is stable but not out of the woods. I hate seeing him this way. I want to slap him and tell him how mad at him I am for doing this to himself and his family. Dammit Tommy, we fucking love you and this is just fucking selfish on your part.
Day 4: They lowered the vent settings from 60 to 40. they tried to get it lower but he got agitated so they are leaving it at 40 and will try again tomorrow. He will stay sedated until he comes off the vent. leg is not as swollen and the dusky color is not bad at all. So I think the blood thinners are working for the clot.
Day 5: They had his sedation off for about 1/2 hour while I was there. He is gagging on the vent. He is not responding to commands which they say is normal as he has been sedated for 5 days but his eye are responsive to light. They say that is good. His vent levels have lowered. He got really agitated at the 1/2 hour mark so they sedated him again. They will try again later. It is very small steps but there is improvement.
Day 6: When I got there this morning they had the sedation off and he was awake and somewhat responsive. After 30 min. they extubated him. He is laughing, joking. Its still gonna be a bit. He will have to have pt as his arms and legs are weak. He is eating pureed food. He is going to the bathroom. His speech is a bit slurred so they did a cat scan of brain that was inconclusive for anything. they will just keep an eye on it. If need be they will do MRI but they think it still may be because of all the sedation he was on..He is telling stories of things he thinks he did but didn't. so they are worried about lack of oxygen to his brain.
Day 7:ommy is out of ICU.. He is not hooked up to anything except pulse and heart monitor. All he has to do is get his strength back and he will be able to come home. He is now considered out of the woods..This has been so hard. I see him joking and I want to also but all I want to do is cry.
Day 8: -he is doing better today. After the hospital he will have to go to a rehab for therapy, to get his strength back. He is starting to get it back in him arms and hands but his legs are very weak. The blood clot has gotten smaller so the blood thinners are working. His lungs are improving. He is back to his goofball status.
Day 9: he is making good strides. maybe tomorrow will be going to massena rehab for therapy.
Day 13: We are in Massena. He got to go outside today. We sat out for about 20 minutes. It was nice out. He had to go in wheelchair as his balance is still not good. They did absolute shit for him so tomorrow I am getting him out of here.
Day 14: Tommy came home today. They weren't doing anything for him in Massena that we can't do at home with therapy and a nurse coming in. When we got home Maurice was so happy to see his daddy. We have a long way to go before he is back to 100%. I am proud of him though. The dr. gave him a script for oxycodone and he got rid of the all. Hes not smoking pot either. He said he is done with all the bullshit. I am still very worried and my heart is still broken. I keep seeing him as unresponsive so I am not sleeping very well.. Life with an addict is not easy, I just hope he can recover from his addiction and all that has happened since his overdose. I am proud of him and I am here for him because I love him and he is the king of my world.
Hes been home a week. Its still hard. I feel like he is mad at me and hates me. He seems to be really moody and I am trying to stay strong but I am scared. Why do addicts want to hurt themselves? Do they not feel the love of someone who truly loves them. Why do they hurt the ones they love? I don't understand. His past isn't really that bad. I don't know what to do. I feel like he wants to leave. I feel like if he does it will be because the drugs win. I can't take that.
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